Unlearning Christian Ideologies Around Those who 'haven't healed'

10 years ago , I found myself down the stairs after falling a few flights, unable to lift my body off the ground. The day leading up to that moment, I was driving down to Calgary after having been invited share my spoken word poetry at my friend’s church. At that point in my lupus diagnosis, I was still trying to speak up for myself when speaking to doctors.

At this point in my diagnosis, I wanted my ‘regular’ life to go on so badly that I was underestimating what my body was going through. At this point in my Jesus-believing-and-going-to-church life, I was struggling to reconcile what church folks would tell me about my illness, how I was feeling in my body and what does it mean to follow Jesus in this body.